But, I’m a poet

There was a light, an aura, shining against the crowd
someone different, someone new
someone i never met, someone fascinating,
someone to meet again and again

It’s not a lie when i say
everything faded into background
except You;
I’m just a poet, you know

Often i overemphasize, inhibitions and emotions
Exaggerate an instant with eloquent words
Romanticize every possible happening on earth
Read into more than one should

Maybe it was just a passing a moment
But
I am a poet;

©Christin
Image courtesy- my new found Hobby😚


I don’t believe you

I never believed it
When you said
“You can either love me or hate me
There is no between”
I smiled
You just had no mediocrity

Emotions were always loud
Even make the deaf feel something
Expressions bright as the day
Even those behind shut doors and heavy gates couldn’t escape
You were just that magical!

You could envelope one in your heart
In minutes of meeting
You were just that magical!

You were warmth personified
When you cried like a child
Got angry with a pout
Jealous throwing tantrums everywhere

I always wondered
How could someone hate you
Such sunshine and warmth in a box
Who could not love you?
So the statement aforesaid wasn’t true

Life took its turns
And Here I am
still unable to believe you
Because today
I’m standing in middle

I have loved you
And could never hate you
SO here I’m standing in middle
Unflinching immovable
Standing my ground
In the middle of nowhere;

EY asked;

What am I to you?
Ey asked
Not angry nor demanding
Just a simple question
“Half of my poetry are for you.”
Was my simple reply

Home

Baffled, befuddled
Amongst the rush
Watching people everywhere
Loneliness swarmed in

Befuddled tripping on my steps
Managed to move
Where I didn’t know?
No place made a difference

And I felt my phone
Pressing against my chest
I called you
Not so
You could help me
I just wanted to see you
In my adrenaline rushed state
How I made my way to you?
I wonder ,but a little
For I could only go to you

I thought I would hug you
Maybe cry a little
Maybe whine a dime
Just tell u how much you mean to me.

But when I reached
And I saw you
I forgot the whining
Crying and all sorts of pain
Unlike the movies
Didn’t rush into your arms
Cause
The black of your eyes
Calmed all the storms
Blazing flames of anxiety
Turned snowflakes of serependity
I didn’t say anything
Walking with you did wonders
Just listening to you
Reduced the screams within me

And i didn’t even know
When this wide curve came
On my face,
This person was content and just smiling.
Well it feels like I returned home.
My home came to me.

Saudade or not?

I miss us
yes i do
Never thought
I would
Definetely didnt think
I will say it loud

I didnt need you
I told
more to myself than you
Feels independent
Yes i do
but i still miss you;

Even though
I don't need you
I wanna keep you
around me too
wanna pack you in my bag
and take you wherever i go;

Even though
I don't need you
Wanna share
My joy and sorrows
with you
Wanna protect you
from all
that comes through;

My life won't end
without you
But it is livelier
with you
Hope you know this
Darling, even though
i never needed you
still i miss you;

I have been wondering about the title, when I asked a friend, he said this poem shows longing, it’s SAUDADE. But I couldn’t completely embrace the idea, so please share your views, it’s Saudade or not.

* SAUDADE-deep emotional state of nostalgic or profound melancholic longing for an absent something or someone that one cares for and/or loves. (Wikipedia)

Pit of love.

When we were walking
in the deep pit of love
I never noticed
U were gnawing at my rope up
Why?
To fall more deeply in love
As the cliché does.

Best memories

Some sweet emotion
Stirring my insides
Beckoned best of my memories
Sending me in a whirling past;

Surprisingly,
However hard I thought
All I could remember was
Your smiles with closed eyes
Filling the crevices of my heart,
My jokes and your laughter 
Ringing all walls of my mind ,
Your teasing and my cringy nose in response,
In all those shabby places;

Bewildering it may sound,
There were no concerts,
No lavish food and bars,
No shopping marts,
Not even for an instant
The focus of all my best memories
Was always YOU and ME,
You and me ,
In our own trance;

why are you smiling?

You keep asking me,

Curiosity burning in eyes

Still the same question

Despite being answered millions of times;

.

Do you like to see me flustered

Embarrased,pouring my heart out to you

Or you don’t believe in,

My words,my picture of you;

“Why are you smiling?”

Apparently i cant deny you

I’ll answer one more time,

Flustering myself another dime,

This time i’ll pen it down

So you can read it whenever you want;

.

There is no theory,

My bet is, its an instinct,

Similar to breathing,involuntary,

An expression of my feelings,

The more you ask, the more i smile,

If a theory existed,

Conclusion would

Undoubtedly be you,

For you make me smile;

.

Am i funny?’

Is there something on my face?”

Asked in your lovely voice,

Laughter filled the halls

Got you completely annoyed;

Would you understand?

If i simply said,

You make me smile,

Nobody laughed at me like that”

You’d adamantly claim;

Difference is in vision,

Eyes are the same,

Miss the pure white light,

Beautiful latetia you were,

One couldn’t help but smile,

Watching ocean for the first time,

Awe enough to mesmerize,

Looking at you is similar,

For me every other time;

.

Here i’m telling you,

Why am i smiling?

Even writing this,

Read this,

Till you believe it,

For it is true,

It’s my truth,

Also so you dont bug me

Next time,

With what i have answered

Millions of times;

.

Still if you want to hear,

I will tell you

Myself,

Apparently

I can’t deny you;